I need some sort of mind explosion, a restart lol just something to clear my head….or some huge realization that nothing will ever be the same again….cause it just hurts to think of the past ALL THE TIME :/….. This shit is lame and I can’t find what makes me happy……something is bound to come my way though…it always does! I’m not defeated though so its all good!!! I’ve kept talking about my feelings to a minimal but tonight was just that night when my mind went on
Overdrive, I know there is someone out there that would understand how I think and why I do the things I do…Like atleast I acknowledge I have mental issues, some people just set the truth to the side lol..anyway this random late rant is over….

These moral crimes I just committed««««««

God I just need some effing help!

I often get the questions, “where have you been?”,”how come you always disappear?”, ” why are you being so sketchy & slack?”…… Well the simple answer is I always get myself into these problems that everyone but myself can get over…. So physically I can’t be around because mentally I can’t deal….. And saying ” you just need to get over it” doesn’t help, this stuff just takes some time, at least I am not bitter over the situation!!! I would just prefer to work on myself in private instead of facing the situation faking happiness….. Okay pointless rant over :) lol